DARKNESS AHEAD....................

Early morning I woke after having one of the worst nightmares. It was about this thing, basically a turn on the life, for which I am not yet ready, not ready to reach the next level of life cycle. I am not mentally prepare for it. For the next one hour, I was sitting in a corner and went completely blank, the silence shattered with sound of noisy door bell.

The front page of today’s Times of India, is catchy. Asking everyone to start initiating the actions from Self rather than waiting for others to DO. Usually such messages, mails, songs or for that matter TV ads make me feel fresh, energizes me, but today nothing is working out yet.

I thought of calling my sister, but then it must be 1PM @ other side of the world. Bhau is coming to India on 16^th, so I wasn’t sure whether to talk with him on phone or have a face to face conversation. Even in that confusion I placed the call, to hear the typical answering machine reply L. I was wondering what to do and then connected to internet to read something which can inspire me and keep my moral high. I saw a friend online, even before I could buzz her and talk, my ISP decided to F*** me again.

There was nothing I can do about it, so decided to leave early for work & my bike was waiting for me. Believe me friends; I never had such bad start of a day in my entire life. Yesterday I forgot to turn of the petrol cock & now petrol was overflowing in carburetor. After struggling with it for more than 20 mins, finally it started. As soon as I reached office, workload was waiting for me. All these were looking like bad omens to me.

Then suddenly my cellphone rang and my parents were on the other end. The fear started gripping my mind while talking with him. I did try to prove my point and situation, but it seems that they are not in the mood to listen, for me it’s a big question. I don’t want to hurt their feelings but then How can I let the society to decide my faith? After all it’s the question of next 40 years of life (let’s hope that I will survive that long :-| )

I have to fight this battle on my own….

( All my post on this blog was about the funny/happiest/cherish moments and memories of my life. And how unlucky I am, my 50^th post is all about the wrong things :( , and please do ignore all the grammatical/spelling or any other damn mistake. I am not in mood to re-read this post )